I know YOU have said that more than once to someone....someone who doesn't craft or doesn't have a hobby other than following you around, or your family who think you should participate in family functions like supper at the table with kids and all that family stuff....but what's really going through your mind is "how quickly can I get this done and get back to my stitching?"
And then the shame sets in. And this begs the question, "Who have I ignored lately because I was BUSY?" People don't want to be around you just because you are there...it's because they like you or love you or something like that, right? Sighhh, I like and/or love you too......
How do you fix that? Well, if you use my way of thinking you don't do it in the first place. Which makes me a big, fat hippo-crate! Oh yes, spelled wrong and everything! YOU know what I'm saying and if YOU don't have a clue then either no one has made you aware of your problem or you aren't crafting enough!
Selfishly I tell myself that I have sacrificed and struggled and paid my dues and I deserve to be left alone in my world of floss, fabric, patterns, needles, and books. But my friends and family get this particularly defined and very hurt look in their eyes when I say "I'm busy". YOU know that look. I know YOU do, so don't deny it. It's that look, where one moment they are looking right at you and then glancing at you from the side and then they look down with a kind of sad face and.......
YOU cannot "make it up" to them. Trust me I have tried. The support of your craftiness wanes and may disappear all together due to hurt feelings and continued cancellations and "rain checks" made by you because you really want to finish this or start on that, it's disgusting isn't it?
I've worked hard to not have this happen more than once in a blue moon because I really do value my friends and family. However, I am guilty of continuing to hurt people inadvertently and unnecessarily and REALLY I never meant to hurt anyone on purpose or otherwise. I'm a dork.
All of you (and I do mean ALL) have unanimously agreed that I am truly a BERSERKER STITCHER. It is my theory that because of this B.S. issue I am likened to someone who has a very uncontrollable case of ADHD. I am easily excited, distracted and on to the next thing before you take the next breath....that's on a good day! This ONLY applies to my world of crafting. I love reading about it, I love learning about it, I love being spoken to about it, I love buying craft supplies! There is not one part of crafting I do not like except when I am so obsessed by it I don't see the hurt I have caused.
Granted, I'm pretty socially awkward, so it's really not surprising this happens. It is a world I control (like Animal Crossing har, har) and in my world everything is sparkly and pretty and in it's place in accordance to my patterns and imagination.
Fortunately I am called out on any slight that I have committed and made aware of it so I don't do it again, and again I am fortunate that my friends and family love me enough to point it out to me. Pretty sure a few have wanted to slap me silly.
So to those I have offended or made sad or confused by what appeared to be total lack of feeling and focus....I AM TRULY SORRY. I love my NCC, it's where I want to be so please respect that and in turn I shall respect that you are a person with feelings that matter because they really do matter.
Some of you are probably wondering why I apologize for being myself. Because I want the people in my life in my life! I'd like to be the best person I can be, and being selfish isn't on that list. I do not apologize for the happiness my beloved NCC gives me and my exuberance for it. YOU, the crafter, understands, but those that don't....well....they won't but I still love them just the same.
And now that I have spent this special time with you, I shall now callously (not really but it may seem that way) turn back to my stitching because I just saw an update on Unconventional X Stitch where Elizabeth is stitching slow and steady and may WIN!!! NOT allowed! The competition is fierce.......
Until next time.....(unless someone does something horrible to the NCC after this blog posting)...Happy Stitching!